DC's Writing (Part deux)

[dragonclaw15]

Since my old one got killed, and I don't particularly want to restart that thread, here's my reborn thread for my writings. For my first entry, here's a poem I just wrote for a certain girl.

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Jenna, Not Raye (We Say Goodbye)

“Hello,” she said that day to me
That day so many years ago
“Goodbye,” she barely said
I almost didn’t hear her words.
Now I can’t hear them at all.

“Hello,” she says again to me
The letters burn bright into my eyes
My fingers flew across the keys
A simulated smile, an unheard laugh
We said goodbye and a door shut

You know, it’s no challenge to get
To know me and my manner
We just have to talk for a little while
And then you can decide if you like me
And chances are I’ll decide the same

It’s not hard to fall in love with me
At least, I don’t think so, except that
I broke up with me for being depressing
I couldn’t take how sad I was all the time
So I stopped talking to myself

I guess it was the same way with you
Falling in love was as easy
As falling into a deep hole
You know it’s equally hard to get out
I climb but the wall wears away

So when you say I can’t tell
Love from a hole in the ground
You know, you’d be right because
I can’t ever since that day my heart
Stopped being able to break my fall

I had to stop letting pride come before the fall
After all pride isn’t quite indestructible
And you’d think I’d learn to recognize the stones
In my path and stop putting my foot where my mouth is
It gets hard to talk after you hit your face into a rock

So maybe I’ll just sit here in my silence with my
Bruised ego and use all the muscles but the ones
In my head, I won’t move my mouth or eyes
And maybe I’ll just let my brain get fat
I’ll just nod my head until my back breaks

You know sometimes I can just joke about anything
And you can talk about anything but you and me
And you know I can tell when we say goodbye
That you don’t want to say it and well, neither do I
Maybe it’s just as well that neither of us can speak

This equalizer makes waves like an ocean
It jumps and beats like the monitor on my heart
It’s the same with smoking, you know when they say
That cigarettes will kill you, well, it only scares away
Those people who aren’t too afraid to live.

So let me pick up this phone and give you a call
I’ll ask for Jenna, not Raye, cause that’s not your name
Let’s talk and joke around like nothing’s changed
We’ll talk about nothing, but it’ll still be worth it
And let’s see what happens when we say goodbye.

[dragonclaw15]

Believe Me

Believe me, believe me
When I say that forbidden word
Don't shush me, put your finger
To my lips when I whisper
"I love you," no, don't silence me
When I say "I need to see you."

Yes, I had my hopes, and
Yes, I had my dreams, and
Yes, I know I lost them
By myself, you didn't need
To help me with that, no
You didn't do anything at all.

So that left me here
With my aching head
And my badly broken heart
No, no, that's not right
You know I only have a broken head
And this so badly aching heart.

I mean, you know I don't have
The soul of an artist
Or the heart of a poet
All I've got is the art of a lover
And I know that's not enough
For anything that's real.

I know it would be too easy
To give up, to listen to my friend
Who says "Please don't settle"
For less, I think she means, but
You know, that works both ways
And I'm stupidly optimistic.

So there's nothing else to do
But poison myself with lead
The graphite dust of my sorrows
That turns my fingers black
And the glass clear as water
That holds something deadlier.

So I beg you, believe me,
Please believe me when I
Scream "I miss you" from
The highest tower in this town
I mean there's not much else
I can do, no, nothing else to do.

I mean, if you don't believe me
There's not much else you can do.

[Aegis]

Funny how I didn't really, really, REALLY read either of those poems before until now. Since I am anything but a poet, I will freely admit that I can't totally follow the meaning behind some of the verses in the first poem, though at the very least I can see the emotion behind both of them. Both of them heartbreaking, I might add. Almost makes me wonder...

[dragonclaw15]

The first poem is a very personal one, so its meaning would probably be a lot less obvious, so don't feel alone in that. Thanks though.

[Aegis]

No prob. You've seen enough of my stuff, figured I take a look at your's.

[dragonclaw15]

Lies

Read me a story about all those years ago
And all those people who waited for beauty
Who prayed for the truth to come and never go
We’re still waiting; I’m still waiting to see

Tell me what you wanted to hear
Show me what I wanted to see
Show me that there’s nothing to fear
Say that’s what you want from me

Give me what you want me to hold
Tell me what you want me to know
Ask me to do whatever I’m told
Tell me the meaning of this show

I love your lies, tell me some more
I want to pretend everything’s alright
I wasn’t there, but I see you’re sore
Hey, tell me who won the fight

Tell me why I didn’t see you yesterday
The truth is I don’t want to know it
Don’t tell me you didn’t see I stayed
I waited for you. I kept the candle lit.

So tell me about all those
Who waited for absolution
Who stayed in the path they chose
To the final resolution

This is a fairy tale run through a sieve
All the truth has filtered through
I believe I want to believe
You believe that I believe you